The past three weeks have been really difficult for me to focus in school.
Ever since I came to my epiphany about my life, focusing on classes that I hate and struggle in has been even harder than usual. I feel like I have had test after test, paper after paper, and in all honesty, just do not care. I’m trying, I’ve always been a good student, but it’s very frustrating when I don’t understand my classes and hate them.
So, instead I bake things like this on Halloween:
I lay around at night and stare at power points that I have to read twenty times because they make me so bored and I don’t comprehend them the first nineteen times. I stare at my planner and realize that I have things do, but the motivation never comes to do them until the last minute.
And this week, I’m just reminding myself that I only have 26 academic days (including finals!) left this semester… that’s less than a month. Let me just say that 5:30PM on December 14th cannot come soon enough.
So, Monday night I decided to bake. It was late, and I realized that I finally had bananas to make Alicia’s banana bread that she had bid on for Rebecca’s bake sale. So I put together everything, and it looked wonderful. I think it’s came out okay… I hope she liked it!
But, by the time I put it in the oven, it was only 8:45PM and I still was bored and didn’t want to look at anything that had to do with biology, so I decided to make some pumpkin cinnamon chocolate chip bar things. It ones one of the hundreds of recipes I found on tastespotting.com as usual, with a few Emily modifications.
So all in all, I’m procrastinating once again. After this week, I don’t have much due/to study for until finals which is good. It’s been a pretty crappy four weeks of constant tests/quizzes/papers every single week.
Where do you find motivation when you have none?