…I graduated high school.
At the time, I felt like I had waited my whole life for that moment to come, and its really weird to think that it was four years now. I look at myself and cannot believe how much I have changed and grown as an individual since my high school graduation, yet in many ways, I still remain that same insecure girl. I have to constantly remind myself, I am a different person… I am a strong woman.
I am not afraid to be alone.
I am not afraid to be independent.
I am not afraid of being happy.
That girl in those pictures however was surrounded by a loving support group of girls who she has known all of her life. Despite different colleges, growing up, and moving in different directions in life, there is an overwhelming sense of love and compassion that I still find from those girls.
In spite of our differences, I truly love them with all of my heart. I don’t have siblings. I am not close with my extended family. My friends are my family. They helped to mold the person I have become today and I am so thankful they are a part of my life.
Although I may have looked like this last year,
I really believe gaining the forty pounds I did after high school was a part of my healing process. I know it sounds backwards, but I sort of believe that weight gain had to show me how I could find happiness at any point of my life.
Now today, I am almost thirty pounds lighter than I was in that picture. I still have a long way to go, but I’m healing.
I’m going to be okay.